my life.

My Life.

"I've got some issues that nobody can see,
and all of these emotions are pourin' outta me,
I bring them to the light for you,
it's only right,
this is the soundtrack to my life."
- Kid Cudi

if

If you're asking if I need you, the answer is forever. If you're asking if I will leave you, the answer is never. If you're asking what I value, the answer is you. If you asking if I love you, the answer is I DO.

KATY PERRY!

K-A-T-Y-P-E-R-R-Y!

You're such a barbie alive! :*:*

read this&realize. or regret will come like this.

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried

I Broke Up With Her.

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

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Think about it, when she’s too much for you.. She just wants the best for you. Because to her YOU’RE the best. If you don’t like something, talk to her about it. You mean so much to her. Don’t just give up. Don’t just leave because you want the easy way out. Ya’ Dig?

This made me cry like a bitch. :(

:’(

;___;

FUCK THIS SHIT. I’M TOTTALY CRY :”“”“”“(

Welcome Ramadhan \m/

HELLO!

Marhaban ya Ramadhan! Minal aidin wal faidzin. Mohon maaf lahir&batin :-)

maafin yaa kesalahan-kesalahan gue. Nobody's perfect, right? so forgive me all my mistakes I've done. sengaja maupun ga sengaja.

SELAMAT MENJALANKAN IBADAH PUASA

:-)

-chia

07.08.10

yep. 07.08.10

hari perayaan ultah gue sama fira, gila degdegan banyak yang gadateng. yaaa tapi ga seburuk yang gue bayangin lah. gile ya, gue telat setelat telatnya! gila nih ya, siang bangun2 gue nemenin nyokap gue ke rumah sakit. sampe siang gitu terus baaru balik nyampe rumah jam 1an gitu. dan ya, gue dapet kabar yang bakal ikut cuma dikit! garagara tempatnya di venue, dan adalaah seseorang yang buat pada ga dateng gitu. AAAAAAA. oke abis itu sekitar jam 4an gue ke mandi siapsiap ke salon. trs jalan dan...............MACET BGT YAALLAH. fira udh nelfon, dan ternyata dia juga kena macet. gila 3jam kali ke kemang doang ck. tapi fira nyampe duluan. pas nyampe sana, pas banget pada mau pulang............ya mau gimana lagi. tapi masih ada yang nunggu disana. sampe sekitar jam 10an gitu, aaaa udh freak freak an dan lagi gue sama fira di ceburin! abis itu mereka pada pergi ke lil baghdad buat nge sisha yaudah gue si gamau ikut males heee udah gitu gue nuggu bentar disana dan pulang deh heeeeee.

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http://www.facebook.com/#!/album.php?aid=18728&id=1700951542&ref=mf

check this out!

i'm BirthdayGirl :-)

Happy Birthday to ME!

Bethari Salsya Ismayandra

:-)

moga222 gue jadi anak yang baik,sholeha,nurut sama ortu, bisa banggain orang tua, memperbaiki keturunan, kagak bego2 amat, terus ya bisa gape cita2 gue. happyBirthday to me! hooowrey!

HAPPYBIRTHDAY FIRA!

helloo!

HAPPYBIRTHDAY ANDI ZAFIRAH GHASSANI!

WISH YOU ALL THE BEST!

HAVE A GREAT ONE YEA :-)

gue hari ini gamasuk :-( yaaa gapapa lah yang penting gue udah ngucapin yega. gue ttp harus istirahat. tp bsk gue masuk kok. haha yaiyalah gue ultah gitu. besok gue ultah. please be my day! please :-)

my birthday party is killing me-_-

HEH.sekarang udah tanggal 4, dan gue sakit. kagak masuk sekolah. semalem gue ke dokter, katanya sih di suruh istirahat 2hari aja gitu. ya gimana ya, mana 2hari lagi gue ultah dan bakal di rayain. gimana ya?gatau ah bingung.

taugak, pusing gue mikirin ultah gue. bikin gue stress. banyak banget masalahnya. ya ya buat dapetin apa yang kita mau emang ga gampang dan butuh proses. butuh proses nya itu yang bikin ribet. hm, cerita dari mana ya?

Gini, pas gue umroh tuh ya, kan gue ol msn si fira nawarin ultah bareng. ya ya siapasi yang bakal nolak kalo di tawarin ultah bareng temen dan temen itu deketbgt sama kita? ya jelas gue bilang mau. si jema nawarin tempat di barcode dan menara imperium. gue belom bilang apa22 ke nyokap gue. sumpah, kasian gue sama nyokap. dia udah capek kali ngurus buat umroh itu. yodah, gue diemin aja dulu. sebelumnya sih ya udah ngmg, tapi secara ga langsung. dan nyokap juga ga ngerespon. abis itu ya pas gue ol itu ya bicarain tempatnya. dan mereka bilang bsk nya mereka mau kesana buat nanya2.

Keesokan harinya, gue sapa tuh msnnya jema. dan dia bikin gue panik. dia bilang dia udah di reserve. anjir, panik gue paniiiiik! gue belom bilang apa-apa ke nyokap. udah kesel aja tuh gue sama mereke kok tiba-tiba udh reserve aja. eh ternyata mereka kira gue udah pasti dan udah serius boleh, udah tuh sempet berantem bentar udah gitu dia bilang ternyata belom di reserve -_- dan terpaksa gue ngmg sama nyokap ijin kalo mau ultah bareng sama fira, dan blabla nyokap ngangguk tapi tampang kayak ada beban gitu. kasian sumpah :'(

oke gue pulang umroh tanggal 27. dan keputusan gue bulat buat masuk sekolah besoknya, soalnya gue udah bener2222 ketinggalan pelajaran. besoknya gue masuk dan temen22 gue pulang sekolah pada main ke rumah, sebenernya tujuannya buat bicarain ultah gue dan fira. oke mereka antara lain : Bhita, Zela, Jema, Fira(neneq), Difa, Aisha, Tita. baik banget ya mereka mau bantuin gue sama fira. thanks! ya ngomong gitu blablabla malemnya nyokap gue ngobrol sama nyokap fira. dan berencana besoknya mau ke barcode buat liat tempat.

Besoknya gue liat tempatnya sama si fira sama nyokap, abis itu nyokap rada gasuka sama tempatnya. yaaaaa gitu deh udah mahal dan tempatnya ya gitu. pulangnya gue sama fira ke ruumah gue. nyokap pergi lagi. ternyata nyokap liat tempat yang lebih bagus. dia menunjuk tempat venue. besoknya, gue bilang ke yang lain kalo nyokap gue gasetuju di barcode dan jadinya di venue. semua pada bilang kalo venue tuh gini gitu gini gitu. aaaa gue bingung.

fira pulang sekolah main lagi ke rumah gue, ngmgin masalah ultah lagi. hhh bener2 killing me softly nih ultah-__-'' oke, gue berusaha biar bisa have fun bareng yang lain. dan yang lain mau di barcode. oke, gue ikutin gue berusaha biar ttp di barcode. akhirnya gue nge-bbmin nyokapnya fira pura2 jadi fira. bilang kalo venue itu gini gitu blablabla. tiba2 kriiiiiing nyokap gue telp ke rumah. ya ya intinya ngomel. dia ttp mau di venue dengan alasan lebih murah. lebih bagus. gue bilang kalo di venue tempatnya gini gitu. nyokap gue bilang 'yaelah dek, semuanya sama aja. tempat2 dugem juga, mau venue, nu china, barcode. lagian mama juga bingung ultah kamu baru 13th tapi dirayain di tmpt dugem. gimana 17th?' gila nyesek nyet AAAA taudeh.

besoknya, gue sama nyokap gue memutuskan untuk liat venue. yaap, sebenernya gue belum liat venue kayak gimana, cuma kata tementemen aja. sebenernya gue juga salah si, bener kata nyokap. nyokap sambil jelasin baik2 dan gue baru ngerti maksud nyokap. intinya nyokap mau ngasih yang terbaik. dan nyokap gamau gue dapet masalah gara2 ultah gue. tuh betapa baiknya nyokap gue, gue jadi ngerasa bersalah, kasian, dan lainlain. udah gitu gue curhat ke bagas. yap! kakak gue yang satu ini emang paling enak diajak curhat-__- dia ngasih saran yg bener banget. gue jadi mikir, kalo gitu kenapa ultah gue mesti dirayain?kenapa di rayainnya enggak di pantiasuhan aja?kenapa enggak bagi2 rejeki ke anak yatim?semuanya terlintas gitu aja.

senin, selasa gue cuma di tugasin sm nyokap nentuin siapa aja yg bener2 bisa dateng. dan gue makin bingung dengan semuanya yang jawabannya 'insyallah' ya. aaaa pusingpusing. senin sorenya gue sama jema,neneq,fira nyari tempat. liat venue, liat2 di kemang, trs ke citos liat score. yap nyokap gue ngasih alternatif di citos kalo pada gamau di venue. okeh, gue kesana liat dan pada suka, yowes setuju di citos. besoknya pulang sekolah gue sama nyokap sm nykp fira ke score nanya harga dan beuuuuuuuuuuh mahal banget. gile. omg.omg yodah nyokap fira nyaranin tempat. malemnya kita kesana dan gajadi, soalnya udh di reserve. akhirnya muter2 kemang lg malem2. dan akhirnya ke venue. dan nyokap fira bilang di venue aja. malem itu gue udah sakit tuh. abis dari sono gue ke dokter, dan disuruh istirahat. HAAAA penyiksaan. ini gue diem2 ol loh. sebenernya gaboleh, lagian bosen tidur mulu. emang gue mayat.

sekian cerita gue :D

06.08.10/07.08.10 PLEASE BE MY DAY

hallo2222 apakabar? oke to the point aja oke? nih ya. lo tau kan?oh iya blm di kasih tau aduh banyak bacot nih gue.oke gini, tanggal 06.08.10 gue ULANG TAHUN, oke? gapenting?emang. bagi kalian. bagi gue ini penting banget ya, pleeeeeeeeease bangetbangetan ya, gue mohon banget sama kalian please, make my birthday to be the best birthday ever get. oke? yang janji mau ngasih gue sesuatu kasih dong :P:P:P yang janji mau jadi seseorang yang buat ultah terbaik, pls tepatin janji lo! jangan omdo doang yeee hoho. i beg you all!

nah ya, jadi gue ultah tanggal 6, tp dirayain tanggal 7. barengan sama @firazafirah yang kebetulan ultah tanggal 5. gue gamau kejadian dulu terulang lagi. gue gamau ya harus nangis2 kayak dulu lagi. di hari ultah gue. pls gue gamau :( gue gamau ada masalah. plsssssssssss! tp kyknya.................itu bakalan terulang lagi huhuhu :'( please jangan sampe itu terulang lagi huhu.

I BEG YOU ALL! PLEASE MAKE MY BIRTHDAY TO BE THE BEST BIRTHDAY PARTY!

Falling In Love

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
He's only a friend, and nothing else
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretned that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish

praying for me

HEWLOOOO

sebelumnya gue mau minta maaf. kalo gue punya salah-salah sama kalian, mgkn selama ini gue sering ngeselin, ngesok, atau gimana gitu. maaf yaa! doain gue yaaa selamet di mekkah. semoga gue disana baik-baik ajaaa.

maaf yaaaaa! restuin gue! doain gue!

bakalan kangen sama temen-temen, semuanya :( kangen sama dia juga huhuhuhu. selamat tinggal indonesia, selamat tinggal jakarta. sampai bertemu tanggal 28! hohoho

webcaman sama zela!

HOHOHO.

isengiseng gakada kerjaan jadinya gue webcaman sama zela, sekalian buat ngeliat terakhir muka dia soalnya bakalan 10 hari enggak ketemu huhuhu. gw mau umroh jadi............ya gitu deh :'(

nihnih printscreenya

hoho gue nya jelek bangeeeet ckck

zelanya cantik bgttttt haaaaa

just so you know.

HELL-o!hey yu!

knp ya gue gabisa banget marah ke lo? setiap gue marah itu juga cuma bercanda. gbisa yg bener2 marah. sedangkan lo? palingan juga gue seringnya bete. tapi lo juga gatau kan? palingan gue cuma cerita ke fira,bhita,zela doang. mau jutek aja susah banget ke lo. dan kalo udah jutek ke elo, kenapa gue yang ujung2 minta maaf coba? gue yang ngerasa bersalaaaah :( tauga kenapa? tauga kenapa gue gabisa marah ke lo? kenapa ya? mungkin karna saking sayangnya kali ya ckck. mungkin juga karna gue takut kehilangan lo. hmmm just so you know.

There are 3 great things in this world.

There are 3 great things in this world.

1.The first thing is for you to love someone.

2.The second thing is for someone to love you back
3.And the third greatest thing is for the first and second thing to happen at the same time

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Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep.wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU. The one who turns to his friends and says, "that's her"

Not Important

This is Not Important. Sorry for spamming, i'm beginner at this. so, maklumi lah :P

cuma iseng kok, gak penting abis, dan yang di foto jelek abis. huek cuihcuih brb muntah wkwk ini gue nge sok abis ckckckckkcck. maaf ya lagipula editannya juga jelek >,<

16.07.2010

WOYY WOYY WOYY!

sekarang tanggal berapa ya? hm au ah lupa :P engga deng tanggal 16 berarti ada apa ya?apakek~

wkwwkkw :P:P

hari ini karna bertepatan dengan suatu hal itu yaaa gue isenng ngerjain dia hahahahahhahahaha maaf ya ;)

btw, gue sekarang bete nih. masa di tinggal mulu sih, jahaaaaat gue jadi ditinggal terus ckck, yaudahlah gue coba memaklumi eaeaea

UDAH YA GAPENTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#ABAIKANPOST INI!!!!!!!!!!

I Miss You

I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the one who understands me so well.

I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow, and my tears disappear.

I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lay awake at night, and think of all the wonderful times that we spent with each other for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life.

9 Things I Hate About Everyone

1. People who point at their wrist asking for the time... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the TV remote because they refuse to walk to the TV and change the channel manually.

3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn Right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?

4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they?

5. When people say while watching a film, "did ya see that?" No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor!

6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?"... Didn't give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?

7. When something is 'new and improved'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.

8. When people say "life is short". What the hell??? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!!! What can you do thats longer?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?" If the bus came, would I be standing here???

♥

'When I text you it means I miss you, and when I don’t it means I’m waiting for you to miss me ♥'

What a Boring Holiday-_-

HAAAAAAAAH.

apabanget-_-liburan gak kemana-mana. dirumah terus paling yaa cuma jalan2 doang ckck. bosen. wthhhhh

yang lain pada ke bali,jogja,bandung,spore,london,hongkong daaaaaaaaaaaaan banyak lagi. lah gue?dirumah.

dan bodohnya lagi..............gue baru liburan pas tanggal 19. pas udah masuk sekolah, bakalan banyak ketinggalan pelajaran gw. insyaAllah sih gue mau umroh Alhamdulilah ;") hoho tapi ya..................masalah nya sekarang!!!BOSEN BANGET NIH DI RUMAH YA TUHAAAAAN!! yasudahlah mau di apakan lagi?ini sudah terjadi. eaea

espanyola B)

SPAIN for FIFA world cup 2010J

FIFA WORLD CUP 2010

The 2010 FIFA World Cup was the 19th FIFA World Cup, the world championship for international association football teams held every four years. Spain won the tournament, which took place in South Africa from 11 June to 11 July 2010. The bidding process for hosting the tournament finals was open only to African nations; in 2004, the international football federation, FIFA, selected South Africa over Egypt andMorocco to become the first African nation to host the finals.

The matches were played in ten stadia in nine host cities around the country, with the final played at the Soccer City stadium in South Africa's largest city, Johannesburg. Thirty-two teams were selected for participation via a worldwide qualification tournament that began in August 2007. In the first round of the tournament finals, the teams competed in round-robin groups of four teams for points, with the top two teams in each group proceeding. These sixteen teams advanced to the knockout stage, where three rounds of play decided which teams would participate in the final match

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SPAIN WILL BE THE WINNER! GO FIGHT SPAIN! SPAIN FOR FIFA WORLD CUP 2010!!

menang ataupun gak menang, spain tetep di hati. apalagi disono ada pacar gue,kakak gue sama bokap gue wkwk. sebenernya gue dukung brazil juga sih tapi yaaaa spain still number one! wkwk

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The Spanish national football team represents Spain in international football and is controlled by the Royal Spanish Football Federation. The Spanish side is commonly referred to as La Furia Roja (The Red Fury) or La Furia Española (The Spanish Fury) or La Roja (The Red).

Spain are currently the reigning World and European champions, having won the 2010 FIFA World Cup and the 2008 UEFA European Football Championship. Spain also won the 1964 European Nations' Cup and reached the UEFA Euro 1984 Final. In July 2008 Spain rose to the top of the FIFA World Rankings for the first time in its history, becoming the sixth nation to top this ranking, and the first nation to top the ranking without previously having won the World Cup. Between November 2006 and June 2009 Spain went undefeated for a record tying 35 consecutive matches before their loss to the United States, a record shared with Brazil, including a record 15-game winning streak and thus earning third place in the FIFA Confederations Cup.

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Penjaga gawang

1Iker Casillas(K)

Bek

15Sergio RamosYellow

3Gerard Piqué

5Carles PuyolYellow

11Joan CapdevilaYellow

Gelandang

18PedroSubstitution

16Sergio Busquets

8XaviYellow

14Xabi AlonsoSubstitution

6Andrés IniestaGoalYellow

Pemain depan

7David Villa

Pemain Cadangan

9Fernando Torres

10Cesc FábregasSubstitution

22Jesus NavasSubstitution

23José Manuel Reina

21David Silva

20Javi Martínez

19Fernando Llorente

17Álvaro Arbeloa

13Juan Mata

12Víctor Valdés

4Carlos Marchena

fabregas!!!!!! why you're so cute? he is my boyfie :P:P

he is my daddy muah :*

kakak gue :P:P:P

hahahahahahahahah just kidding :P cukup kali ya info buat FIFA nya hohoho byebye :P